Its October

Its OCTOBER!!!!

Still in double digits as far as I know...could be shorter, could be longer.  It looks like we will be staying in Virginia for a few more years, YAY!  Things are coming together!

I got everything I needed to do as far as the federal government and the IRS.  I also accomplished everything I needed to for the state.  Now, all I have left is to apply for a business license, doing business as, and using my house as my business papers with the county.

My hyena cart shop is being worked on and is looking beautiful!  I am oh so excited.  I ordered insert fabric as well as PUL to make pockets from.  I need this stuff to get here asap so I don't have to be running around at the end of the month trying to get everything done to open November 1st.

Tonight I wrote my policies, care instructions and my about us pages on my store site as well as facebook.

I have also been thinking up some possible giveaways and stuff to promote my business.  Sales are the way to go now a days.  I love them just as much as the next guy/girl.

Keep a look out...there is some great stuff coming your way!

One year later

So, as of today, my husband has been deployed a year. 365 days. 12 months. Way.Too.Long.

I am so very proud of him.  I am also so proud of myself.  I didn't think when we began this journey that I was capable of loving someone so far away.

I don't really know where in the world he is.  I never know exactly what he is doing.  All I know is that his days are our nights and our nights are his days (for the most part).  I know we both look up into the sky at night time and stare at the same moon because frankly it is as close to together as we can be right now.

I miss him terribly.  I am sad that he has missed so much.  Jayson's 1st birthday, my whole 3rd pregnancy, moving across the country, all of the holidays, Jayson's first word, his 1st steps, our 4th wedding anniversary, Zakary's birth, his 1st smile, 1st time rolling, Hayden's 3rd and 4th birthdays, his 1st day of preschool....and I could go on and on.

But, I do know that he will be home soon.  I also know that we will one day live under the same roof and look at that same moon in the same place, not worlds away from each other.  There is light coming through this perpetual tunnel we have been trapped in for a year now and I am so thankful to finally be able to see it.

I posted on facebook this morning about it being a year and all that jazz.  Some people told me how I was amazing and inspiring.  I appreciate the comments and all but maybe I am just humble because I don't feel amazing.  I don't feel inspiring.  I feel like I am a wife, standing beside my husband while he does his job.  Just as he was asked to his, I am doing mine.  I am not doing anything other than helping to get my family through this.  I am just doing what a military wife does.  I am trying to continue on with how things were when he left.  Just as I will be doing the exact same things when he returns.  I guess in all this it is my job to create a constant and I just hope I am doing a good enough job of that.

I just want to say very quickly that the man that I dropped off one year ago today, is my hero, my love, my everything.  I cannot, even from a world away, imagine my days without his love.  And, I thank him for being right beside me in everything even from so far away.

Double digits baby!

So I got the best news I have gotten in a while this morning from across the world.

WE ARE IN DOUBLE DIGITS!!!!

We are in the tens of days not the hundreds!

I don't think you want to see a page full of exclamation marks, but that's how I feel!

The Army is actually sending my husband back to the Navy. You get the picture

I feel like I have 700 million things to do right now. Like its actually coming to a close, and I never thought I would see this day. I have homecoming to think about...outfits, hair, who gets to hug him first, all that jazz. Then I have a house to get ready to move out of because soon after he returns, it is time move on to our next duty station (note to detailers: I WANT HAWAII 70-80 degrees year round baby!) .

We should find out within the next month were we are headed but the main point is that we are moving on TOGETHER. We have survived (not yet but almost).

I also have to get these boys back into a routine of not always depending on me for everything. I know most of this isn't on me but adding the male back to the family is going to be tough. I have solely made all of the day to day decisions MYSELF. I dictated where we went, what we ate and so on. Now I will have other input. I can now have someone else's input. I am so freaking excited! I can sleep in and so can he. I will have give and take, not just all give. I don't have to be the only one to listen. There will be four ears to hear all of Hayden's ramblings. There will be four hands to gets kids dressed or bathed. Oh my gosh, there will be four hands instead of just my two.

This is long overdue and although we volunteered for this separation, it was a separation my family had to survive and we are almost there. There is light. Not sure how bright just yet, but oh my gosh light at last!